Money is really tight right now but if I could I have found the prefect Halloween costumes for the girls!  This one for Juniper and this one for Samantha.  They would be sooooo cute!  And after Halloween I would just put them in their costumes and let them crawl around the house, well... when they start crawling that is.

this one , this one, and this one  are really cute too. 


I love Halloween.

ARIES (March 21-April 19): Do you get aroused from squeezing balloons
until they explode? Do you quiver with delight as you watch popcorn pop?
Have you ever been patient enough to stand in front of a ripe flower bud
for hours to witness its slow explosion into full opening? If you answered
yes to any of those questions, you're in for an orgasmically pleasing week,
Aries. Lots of things are going to change into something else through the
process of eruption or sprouting or bursting forth. I bet you'll dream of
undersea volcanoes spurting.

As the sky is filling with clouds finally cooling of the heat of the day my husband is sitting on the front porch chatting with my father.  I can see them from the window and my heart fills with love.  They are both deep thinking men and I love to think about what they could be sharing.  Maybe my dad is sharing wisdom from his many years of being a father.

There are so many changes going on that I should take the time to write about it all.  Within the last week or two I've gone through what feels like a deep transition, if not quiet and slow.  I would love to share this all, but I find it deeply personal and I have no idea how to even start.  I have tried many times to update what is going on in my life and how my pregnancy is going but the change and feelings are go big that I have no idea how to start.

So, here we go, an update: Babies, mommy, and daddy, are all doing fine, and as each day that comes and goes brings the final day that they will be together.  Family.  : )

Can I tell you how much I love windwhisp?   Yep I can... ALOT!  I feel so happy and snuggly warm inside and grateful that she's my friend.  She's just wonderful.  I miss her living so far away.  Makes me sad.  She keeps me sane.  Her and her hubby drove in yesterday from San Diego and I got to send almost the whole day with her.  Just like old days.  Sigh, she is leaving on Sunday.  I'm glad she got to meet my belly.  Methinks that I need to post more photos of my tummy.  Not more, any.  I am really grateful for all my friends.  I feel so loved and blessed.  It feels as if I am one small flame, but as my friends and loved ones surround me I become brighter and stronger and they share who they are with me, and I with them.  Sharing our flames so it's not so dark.  I feel like I can do anything with so much friendship. 

Thank you, all of you.     

  

how's the hippie feelin'?: happy
What's that playing in my ear?: Postal Service -Brand New Colony

( Guess what? )

It's Sunday and that means a weekly update from me.  My birthday weekend was pretty good, which was last weekend.  My love took me to a nice nice place on the day of my birth and we had a big family dinner on Sunday.  Thanks to everybody who gave me birthday wishes.  I have been a bit on edge this week and been off and on sick, I think it's because of nerves.  Tomorrow we have an appointment for our first ultrasound.  We will know if it's a boy or a girl.  I am excited, but I can't get rid of these nerves... I think it's because knowing if it's a boy or a girl will make it more real than it has been up to this point.  Yes, we have heard the heartbeat, but I'm only a little bit big and I haven't felt the baby move or anything.  I think I like thinking about it with everything up in the air.  Knowing the gender will make it solid and that scares me.  So I face tomorrow with mixed emotions and I hope to beat these nerves because I don't know if my tummy can take it anymore!

I wrote done some things that I want to share with my child last night.  Things that are important to me and my husband.  Parts of me that I will want to share.  Here are a few:

Deep sense of wonder- Little one you may have tons of this already and most likely will have a thing or two to teach me about wonder.  I can't wait to see your eyes filled to the brim with wonder and joy everyday.  Just thinking about it makes my heart ache,  I can't wait!

Love of Art- Art is very important to both me and your Daddy.  I wish for you to always delight in making and viewing art in all it's forms.  

Creativity-  I wish for you to always fully embrace the creativity of your soul, whatever it may be.  I promise never to do anything to diminish the beauty and power of your creativity focus.  I can't wait to see what you may show me little one.

Love of Nature-  Super super super important to your Mommy.  I wish for you that Nature may always amaze you as it does me.  That you eyes may always be full of joy and wonder whenever you gaze at the beauty and  soul of Nature.

Love of Beauty- May you always see Beauty wherever it may hide.  May your eyes see Beauty where others just see the normal everyday details of life.  May your eyes and ears, and senses always be open.  Like I feel whenever I think about you.  You are my heart little one.

how's the hippie feelin'?: calm
What's that playing in my ear?: Laurie Anderson - One Whilte Whale

Conversation with my dad on 7-20-05

 Me coming downstairs after talking to mom about how Joshua is shorter than me (because he gave me a part of his pants that I’m going to patch up and wear. He has my same waist size but not leg length)

Me: "Big problem"

Dad: "What’s a big problem?"

Me: "Joshua’s shorter than me. Big problem."

Dad: "I think it’s cool"

He says something that I can’t hear cause I go into my room. I come back out.

Me: "What?"

Dad: "I thinks that cool. Everyone should have an amazon for a wife."

Me: "Dad! We’re not married, yet.."

Dad: "But I can hope"

About two minutes later... "You said yet, so I can hope"

how's the hippie feelin'?: silly

how's the hippie feelin'?: wobba wobba!!!

 My little one has a good strong heartbeat.  There is a little being inside me with an amazing little heartbeat!  I heard *her* heartbeat!

I love you sweetheart!

Tags: baby
how's the hippie feelin'?: ecstatic

Life has been a poor mistress these last few weeks.  Isn't it supposed to be getting better???  Not only am I still dealing with being nauseous all the time some evil thing has decided to take up residence in my right sinus.  I blow my nose all the time, and still buckets of gray-greenish snot keep coming out.  Most of the time it feels as if I'm living in a fog and I can't hear out of one or both ears.  My head aches all the time, now even more cause of the sinus thing.  I don't want to eat anything till this little switch gets flipped, then you better not be in the way of me and food.  No longer for enjoyment do I eat, it's now a down right need.  I don't think I like this new relationship with hunger.  I liked things the way they use to be.  I try and have many little snacks during the day, and that seems to help, but can be difficult when you are stuck in a room with a bunch of three year olds.  Plus all my old favorites are becoming enemies.  All the things that I could tolerate eating one day are evil the next.  I can't sleep, tired all the time, and when I do sleep I'm plagued by nightmares about losing the baby.

I hope and pray this is worth it... cause it sucks. 

I want cheese.

 

Brighter note: Joshua is being really sweet and understanding.  He's going to be the greatest dad ever.

*edit* thanks to my beautiful windwhispfor showing where to get a bunch of cute mom-to-be icons! 

Tags: pregnancy
how's the hippie feelin'?: pregnant
What's that playing in my ear?: Enya - On your shore

1. Pick 10 of your favorite movies.
2. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Italicize when someone guesses correctly, and put who guessed it and the movie. (Striking out makes it hard for people to read.)
5. Looking them up is cheating, please don't.

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(If you know me some of these might be easy... If you don't.... good luck!)
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1.  Dear Diary, I am writing in your bullshit pages because my shrink is crazier then I am. 

 2.  Actually, it's my weekly evil-conspiracy and needlepoint group. You wanna come?   

3.  Most men, they'll tell you a story straight through. It won't be complicated, but it won't be interesting either. 

4.  But I know about art and love, if only because I long for it with every fiber of my being.  

5.  The world moves for love. It kneels before it in awe. 

6.  I wanted to be a writer, that's all. I wanted to write about it all. Everything that happens in a moment. The way the flowers looked when you carried them in your arms. This towel, how it smells, how it feels, this thread. All our feelings, yours and mine. The history of it, who we once were. Everything in the world. Everything all mixed up, like it's all mixed up now. And I failed. I failed. No matter what you start with it ends up being so much less. 

7.  I fell down the chimney and landed on a flaming hot goose!  

8.  Hey! Who's drivin' this flyin' umbrella? 

9.  Your mother is an aardvark! 

10.  Young boys should never be sent to bed... they always wake up a day older. 


1. What dreams may come

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2. Stranger than fiction drave117
3. Big Fish drave117
4. Moulin Rouge drave117
5. The Village drave117
6. ?
7. Muppet Christmas Carol we_genie!
8. Robin Hood caspurmy hubby! 
9. Labyrinthwe_genieand drave117
10.Finding neverland drave117
 
Somebody knows their movies........

 

 

 

 anyone wanna  take a guess on the last one?

Do you know what one in a rush husband does for one yucky feeling pregnant wife for valentine's day?  He takes her to Del Taco!  And DI! &nb